HEARTLESS

Looks she enjoys her life with her colleagues.......sampai aher balik last night. she doesn't that I'm worried about her. But I trust her,why she still doesn't trust me?!! What did I do wrong again? She changes completely since she starts working. She eventually forgets me, and trust her with her colleagues more than me. I've known her since past 3 years. I know she can take care of herself, but still I'm worried. Kalau lelaki,okay jua.ni she's a girl,my special person..kalau inda couple bah, inda pulang ku ingau. She doesn't appreciate me. she doesn't know that i have to protect her. because recently in last month and this month,someone texting me that he/she will try to do anything to hurt or persuade her supaya ia jauhi or benci aku. last week, time ku habis solat malam jumat d masjid,ada org ikut aku or stalk aku sampai kerumah.aku inda tau sapa,tapi aku mau cari siapa orgnya. I will tell her when the right time comes. *update On 2nd June ( Saturday ) someone texting me again 8*17*4,that same number. It said that "my wish is come true,that both of you eventually will be separated but not forever. I send my persuasive person to persuade her for not loving you. Broke up with her,as soon as possible.Dont say anyword to anyone especially HER,her famili or police, or else I will hurt her even her families and I mean it. My man will be standby at all time. I'll be watching you and her,hahahahaha..fun fun fun!!!!!!hahahahaha,erase after this message and message log". That's what it said and send me a picture of what he's done if i dun't listen to him.That picture I dun want to show it because it is horrible.I replied it to meet that night,but he didnt reply it.I simply dont understand..can you just leave us alone?just hurt me,not her not her famili and my famili...aku ingau,kalau kami broke up,ingau this shit person will do anything to her.kalau seksa arah aku,manasaja..p jgn arah ia..hmmm.. Coward!!!!!I eventually will find him.I hope she understand and read it eventually. She enjoys herself while I'm hurting to protect her.

"dear bloggie, i havent posted my blog for quite awhile now. there are alot of things happened in my life since last month, trying to get back together with Fess, my one and only love of my life, meeting my bestfriend Mai... yeah, really happy memories. gosh, i dont know what to say here. uhm, my phone will keep its silence for now til he gets back from vacation. i really miss him right now... *giggle* the song im listening to right now makes me wanna cry. i have no idea why, maybe i feel incomplete cos hes not around i guess or im too emotional. >.< just a week and i'll wait for him patiently, be a good girl, stay the way as i am now as i promised him. aaah, rosak my english - very crappy. ahaha." That' one of her post in her blog that i always used to read till now :(. post ni buat hatiku sayu and terharu.I love her so much and I still thinking about her..huhu.

lama udah ku inda check blogku ni..barutah ku masuk..since last year.macam nda bguna jua ku buka blog ni..tai ku cuba activekan kalau ku inda busy,since busy with work,playing PS3 and LOL ( League of Legend ) games and hangout with my friends. Lagipun ku buka pasal tringatkan somethinglah...........as I open her blog and read it.walaupun inda active,tapi ku slalu visit blognya.n read her old post.ku tau plg ia busy with her work.tapi just her know, i always love her very much. I want to go back as we used to. She changes because of me. She doesnt trust me and possible don't love me anymore. I tried to make her love me. But it seems she rather spendtime with her friends and her colleague in her workplace than me. She doesnt want to share anything with me. she doesn't care about me.I've known her long time than her friends. I don't want to control her. Everyday I gave her space and time and I believe her what she's doing.. I'm not being overprotective too.If I'm being overprotective, I probably visit her in her workplace everyday, or suruh one of my colleague that works in her place,to know what she's doing. But I'm not. because i believe in her. Everyday I prayed for her and her families and mine too. Then I went to mosque every thursday with or without my friends. I'm not mad at her or anything. memanglah every couple,tetap da kelaie..p reasonnya untuk improve and understand each other in relationship. Tapi tetap jua ku bersabar. and ku inda mau kelaie sama ia lagi. adakah ku ni,nda strict orgnya? o am I being overprotective? o adakah ku ni, inda layak bercinta? If I've known this, udah lama ku blayar ke overseas utk blajar for degree course slama 3 years. Tapi ku reject,why? one of it is, I know my limits.kalau ku ambil pun,mun malar fail saja,sia2 jua n hampa jua familyku.but most of the reasons is because of HER. time tu ku accept offer dari universities in KL and accept offer jua oleh private company.aku masih ingat time tu, bila ku ckp ku mau blajar tapi ku mau jua kraja. bila ku ckp,ku kan kraja, She's happy and she said "baguslah,and jgnth jauh2 wah.ku tnggu daddyku dua minggu kaja,dah rindu,patah lagi kau blajar dsana,lama lagi tu". " I DON"T WANT TO LOSE YOU" she said. thats her words I still remembered till now. I reject my offer studies because of her. Now I dont know what to do. Should I let her go or continue be with her? I love her so much. She's everything to me. As long as i keep praying and keep patient, I would do anything for her. The reasonnya lagi,for the last 2 months,ni..someone 8*17*4 this number threatened me to broke up..or else I send someone persuasive person to broke you up. pikir main2 saja,rupanya banar2..after that time ku jogging dkampong,ada orgkan langgar aku..nasib aku lari or find somewhere safe.then esuknya,ia text me lagi,suruh aku buat ia trauma..I dun understand why the shit happens to me. Last2 aku jua buat ia trauma..I had to... for sake of her.

I hope u read this blog..If we still havent broke up,like i said always,it's better we compromise,right?of course love nie,nda smestinya,bahagiakan..ada part argument..If not,tani nda experience real love..so hope listen to it..sorry,this video tak berapa clear audio and video..p listen to his song carefully..lama sudah lagu nie aku ada..tapi,recently,i'm listening to it..enjoy..



Love is not a given
You’re not forgiven
But we all easily submit

You have forsaken
What you have taken
So we all still incomplete

I thought we were playing a similar game
And after these years it’s still been the same
And you, of all people, still have your name

Prechorus
What about compromise?
I hold no disguise
You should know better

Chorus
It’s not I don’t want you, I want you
But I need you to be
A little bit faithful and grateful and loyal to my needs
Don’t think I was selfish, I was selfless
And afterall I’ve given you
It’s not I don’t love you, I love you
Well, at least I try to

Trust is not an object
You could reject
But we all easily believe

You have been waiting
And all I’ve been saying
“Please be there for me”

It’s not like we got a thousand years
I’ve yet to express to you all of my fears
And while you have wasted all of your tears

Prechorus
What about compromise?
Why do I pay the price?
Only you have the answers, answers

Chorus

Bridge
I know I’m not perfect but I deserve respect
And after all that’s said and done
You remain the only one in my heart
It’s not my ego
But if you go
I’d have so much to say
Did we pick a good fight to prove who’s wrong and who’s right?
Can we finally compromise?

Chorus x 2

Can we at least talk about it?
Can we at least compromise?

lawa lukis gambarnya nie,ada ciri2 niekan jadi pelukis,or jadi pelukis untuk buat anime..tingkatkan usaha and Gambate,ok?

barangkali,kan melukis gambar aku or familinya kali,ehehe.

Love you.

Curious as to what to get for the diehard Xbox gamer in your inner circle? Unsure how to casually hint to your mom or dad that you want an Xbox Kinect this holiday season? Then check out our gift guide for all things Xbox.



XBOX KINECT/ XBOX SLIM BUNDLE

Easily the most highly-priced item on this list, the Xbox Kinect / Xbox Slim bundle also packs the most bang-for-your-buck. Perfect for a child, spouse, or really the entire family, you’re getting not only the most up-to-date version of the Xbox 360 console (sporting an ultra quiet reader, 250GB hard-drive, Wi-Fi capability and a sleek new design), you’re also getting the Xbox Kinect, the much discussed peripheral that turns you into the ultimate controller. While the Xbox itself can power hardcore games for father and son alike, the Kinect can pull the entire family into the gaming experience, making this one-stop shopping for your total entertainment experience. Just be sure to pick up Dance Central to compliment your copy of Kinect Adventures.



FABLE 3

It’s good to be the king. Or, at the very least, it’s good to battle your way through an epic fantasy adventure until you become the king…and then rule your kingdom with an iron fist. Or a gentle hand, if you’re the yellow-bellied type. Fable 3 improves on so much of what Fable 2 had hoped to accomplish, offering a grand journey through an industrialized version of an old, familiar land. With the Road to Rule allowing players to conquer and then control their kingdom, not only do gamers get a first-rate RPG, they also get a real, tangible sensation of power.



CALL OF DUTY: BLACK OPS

Black Ops is the game to get for the guy who’s killed everything. Had your fill of aliens and space marines? Gunned down enough Wild West black hats? Then it’s time to put some real, historically correct (sort of) bullets into the virtual heads of some Cold War villains in this stunning follow-up to one of the all-time, best-selling video game series in history. Avoiding both WWII Europe and the trappings of modern warfare altogether, Call of Duty: Black Ops takes a trip down memory lane into the time when Castro failed to puff that exploding cigar. Hardcore action, first-rate graphics and damn near unbeatable multiplayer make this a must-own for the hardcore gamer.



RED DEAD REDEMPTION

Who says the Old West is dead? Clearly that person has never played Red Dead Redemption, perhaps the greatest Western game ever created for consoles. With an emotionally gripping story, a cast of quirky, complex characters, a visceral combat system, a sprawling world to explore, and a metric ton of quests and challenges (not to mention the year’s greatest batch of DLC in Undead Nightmares), Red Dead Redemption is perhaps the closest to a flawless gaming experience you’ll have this year.



MASS EFFECT 2

Hi, I’m Commander Shepard and Mass Effect 2 is my favorite RPG on the Citadel…

Bioware’s epic, three-part space opera continues with Mass Effect 2, one of the few gaming sequels on par with The Godfather, Part II as far as follow-ups go. Streamlining almost every aspect of the original, Mass Effect 2 is bigger, faster, smarter, and more jam-packed with content than the first game in the franchise, and that’s a difficult thing to improve upon. Make your choices, man your ship, and go out to conquer the galaxy in this action-packed, story-driven RPG. That, or simply buy this game for a friend or loved one and let them do it. Either way, it’s one of the very best of the year.



Fallout: New Vegas

If you can’t quite wait until 2012 for the end of the world, head out into the post-apocalyptic wasteland of Fallout: New Vegas, the next adventure in the sprawling, open universe of Fallout. Moving the action from the wreckage of Washington, D.C. to the desert surrounding Vegas, this latest chapter offers players hundreds of hours of content packed into a single disc. Pursue the main story of a “murdered” messenger on the hunt for his killer or simply roam the landscape in an effort to help (or harm) or the locals. The world is yours to make, or unmake, with Fallout: New Vegas.



HALO REACH

Next to Call of Duty: Black Ops, you’d be hard pressed to find a more insanely popular franchise release this year than Halo: Reach. The final game for the series’ original developer, Bungie, this outing takes a more militaristic look at the sci-fi series. Set in the days prior to the original Halo, this prequel offers a great opportunity for gamers not familiar with the dense mythology of Halo to leap into the series without missing a beat. Boasting a first-rate single-player campaign and some of the Xbox 360’s finest multiplayer action, Halo: Reach should be on your list for any hardcore gamer you know.



ALAN WAKE

If you're looking to inject a little horror into your holiday, be sure to pick up this year's most impressive supernatural survival title, Alan Wake. Step into the shoes of a famous author who is enigmatically cast into the plot of a novel he doesn't remember having written. Aid Alan in the search for his wife as he attempts to unravel the mystery of Bright Falls.

Here’s a breakdown of the best Wii games of 2010. If you’re looking for Nintendo Wii games to give as gifts this holiday season, this Wii gift guide will get you on the right track.



KIRKY'S EPIC YARN

Kirby is back and better than ever. In this adorable adventure, Kirby accidentally opens a portal to a magical world made of yarn (it’s called Patch Land and it’s governed by the Yarn Wizard) by eating a tomato. Kirby then has to work his way through different foes to stitch the fractured Patch Land back together. It sounds a little farfetched, sure, but the addictive gameplay will keep you coming back to Epic Yarn for more. Plus, the napping yarn bears and smiling felt suns work to crank up the cute factor, adding to the appeal.



NBA JAM

Boom-shaka-laka! NBA Jam has been resurrected and ported to the Wii. While keeping the spirit of the original game intact, EA has revamped the classic and added motion control. The cartoony nature of this frenetic jam fest stirs up a lot of nostalgia. With a title that resides in the hearts and minds of so many gamers, we’re impressed by the attention to detail EA put into the game and the levels of unlockable extras is a very cool addition to the game. We can’t get enough of playing as President Obama.



SUPER MARIO GALAXY 2

Yoshi and Mario team up to explore new worlds and battle new enemies. A polished and robust experience, the game builds on the ideas of spherical navigation and gravitational pull introduced in SUPER MARIO GALAXY. If you love collecting and colorful worlds, SMG 2 is near perfection. Plus, it’s Mario! Nothing says Nintendo like Mario.



GOLDEN EYE 007

The game that captured the hearts and thumbs of gamers everywhere has been reimagined for the Wii. Over ten years ago, the original GOLDEN EYE 007 became the benchmark for multiplayer action. Even though Pierce Brosnan has been replaced with the beefier Daniel Craig, Bond fans will be delighted by the attention to detail and authenticity of the game. The new GoldenEye Wii is a solid shooter for Wii owners, providing Bond-grade thrills and spills.



DISNEY EPIC MONKEY

If you’ve ever wondered what lay behind Mickey Mouse’s shifty eyes, now you'll have the chance to find out. From the mind of videogame great Warren Spector, comes Disney Epic Mickey. It’s a dark take on the Disney canon and from what we’ve seen so far, Epic Mickey looks like a truly twisted adventure. This is not your smiling, tourist-friendly Mickey. This is a Mickey with soul, offering a different perspective on the House of Mouse.



TATSUNOKO VS CAPCOM: Ultimate all Stars

If you like fighting games and weird Japanese cartoon characters, you’ll love Tatsunoko vs. Capcom. The Wii isn’t normally thought of as a fighting game console – that’s usually left to the big boys – but this Wii exclusive is sure to satiate your need to kick some virtual butt. Featuring a full slate of classic Capcom characters and new faces from the Tatsunoko series, it’s one of those accessible fighting game titles available.



MONSTER HUNTER TRI

The formally Sony-centric Monster Hunter series made its way to the Wii this year, much to the delight of Nintendophiles. This action RPG hybrid will have your running around collecting resources, crafting weapons and, of course, hunting. Monster Hunter Tri features exciting underwater battles against various creatures and another highlight of this iteration is the ability to play online. MHT great game to dig your teeth into that will help you pass the hours this holiday season.